Today I tried the “accepting Cal for who he is” thing.
It didn’t work so well.
I looked at Cal with his mushy chubby cheeks.
He’s not fat
but I got uncomfortable wishing his face were more tone.
It had nothing to do with him.
My mother-in-law had told my mom Cal is heavy.
So I winced inside when I looked at his slightly pudgy face today,
Worried other people won’t think I’m a good Mom,
Thinking if Cal looks different, people will think I’m doing a bad job.
– It’s about judging myself, not Cal.
tough art saves!
btw I LOVE your mother-in law!
keep writing, it’s a highlight of my day.
ALL of it inspires and moves me as well as others.
fearless, honest “child of mine”