The New Eleven

Xintai Today I tried the “accepting Cal for who he is” thing.

mindlessly It didn’t work so well.

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buy gabapentin online without dr approval I looked at Cal with his mushy chubby cheeks.

Remchi He’s not fat

but I got uncomfortable wishing his face were more tone.

It had nothing to do with him.

My mother-in-law had told my mom Cal is heavy.

So I winced inside when I looked at his slightly pudgy face today,

Worried other people won’t think I’m a good Mom,

Thinking if Cal looks different, people will think I’m doing a bad job.

– It’s about judging myself, not Cal.

 

One Response to “The New Eleven”

  1. ellen sandor says:

    tough art saves!

    btw I LOVE your mother-in law!

    keep writing, it’s a highlight of my day.

    ALL of it inspires and moves me as well as others.

    fearless, honest “child of mine”